Update

In my last update, I let you all know about how I have started a COTA campaign. I reached out to ask them if I HAD to stop blogging and as long as I follow guidelines, I am allowed to continue.

Some very big things have happened since the last update. Unfortunately, I had to bring my beautiful dog Molly back to the shelter. Aiden loved Molly, but he was too enthusiastic, which scared her. I did my absolute best to ensure that every brief interaction they had together was positive, but it was becoming impossible as he's becoming more mobile and she of course wanted to roam the house and spend time with us (as she should). We did our best to provide Molly the attention, love, and care that she needed, but I could tell she was becoming unhappy and didn't understand why he was being treated differently than her and I thought it was unfair. She was extremely afraid of men and had serious problems with resource guarding and mild separation anxiety. I struggled with the separation, and still miss and love her very much, but the dwelling has been very unhealthy so I'm trying to move away from that and hoping she's found a loving, forever home. My biggest goal is for her to be happy and live a life she deserves.

We went to the pumpkin patch for the first time with Aiden and he also got to experience his first time trick-or-treating for Halloween. I found some window clings and a cute ghost to decorate the house with, and we all dressed up as gnomes. He loved holding his bucket and swinging it around and he was shy meeting the people giving out candy. He loved playing with the dirty pumpkins and screamed at a scarecrow in the corn maze.

Bianca's Story

My friend, Bianca, passed away October 30, 2018. She had complications from a second double lung transplant. She didn't have cf but we bonded over our health, music, movies, writing, and life experiences. She was the most beautiful person, full of light and love, always making people smile and laugh. She was so much more hopeful and positive than I could comprehend. One day I am going to do something special for Child Life in her memory, as I have always loved Child Life, and that was her passion as well.



Bianca's brother set up a GoFundMe to help afford Bianca's Services.

Most of the holidays are full of painful memories for me of losing friends and difficult life events. The Fall and Winter, especially are tough, as I always think of things with different perspectives and not just with my own feelings. The amount of people whom severely impacted my life that are gone is more than I can count with both hands, but with every person that goes, I remember important things they've said or lessons they have taught me. Sometimes I don't learn them until it's too late to thank them.

So to everyone who has taught me something important, or been there for me, thank you. I hope you spend the holidays safe and warm, making new memories and traditions, spreading love to the people around you.

Although life can be overwhelming and difficult, it's important to remember:
"The moment you're ready to quit is usually the moment right before a miracle happens. Don't give up". - Bianca.

Until Next Time,
Sara ♥